First Time

First time blogging that is.

But I recently loss virginity too, after a long, long, seventeen and a half years of dread. Since I'm right this moment losing my blogging virginity, this is what I want to discuss.

Virgo, not the astrological sign, but the Latin word, means 'sexually uninexperienced woman', by this definition, men cannot be virgins. Then another thought on this is 'blank slate', much like tabula rasa for all you emprical thinkers. Essentially, we gain knowledge, in this case sexual experience, through our senses- primary or secondary. Which makes a lot of sense considering virginity can only -truly- be 'lost', 'given', 'stolen' through an act where your senses are in full force.

This was why I was so unsettled over my virginity. I knew so much and was so aware about sex.I felt I was so knowledgeable, that the act would not change my sum of my empirical knowledge. When it happened, which was lovely and unrushed, I didn't feel so different, just settled. Settled, because after so much thought and worry over the plot line of sexual initiation, it was over, and it was good, and it can happen again if I want it to.

The thing that bothers me about it now though, is I didn't do anything revolutionary. I expected something to change, evolve. Something evolutionary should, as I imagined, come from sex. I broke no rules, I was safe, heterosexual and, legal. Traditional too. Anal sex, on the other hand, is prohibited until one is eighteen years of age in Canada. Perhaps in effort to discourage homosexuals, or encourage teenage pregnancies.

There are many resources for people thinking of having sex for the first time, not to mention different versions of virgin. There are probably less reasons to have sex, however, now that I've emprically experienced it, that my tabula rasa isn't so rasa anymore, the only good reason is because you want to. When biologically and mentally, sex feels right, then it is probably right. Do you extensively question your hunger upon a grumbling stomach? Perhaps then as a culture we should pay more attention to our physicality than our social pressure. Virgo doesn't have to be ergo...