Contemplating the Allure of Another's Submission

This evening I was perving a few videos on Fetlife and I was surprised by my response to one in particular. I am not normally drawn to water sports or piss-play at all and yet that was the focus of this brief clip. The Dominant in question had made a video of pissing very slowly into another man's mouth, which he described as "piss feeding a pig." Not my usual thing at all.

What caused me to even open this clip? It was the expression on the submissive's face in the opening frame. It drew me in completely and pulled me past the awful caption. His eyes were fixed on the camera which was likely in front of the Dom's face. The submissive was leaning slightly back, supported by his hands. His mouth was open and gaze turned upward. He wore an innocent looking, plain white t-shirt. At first, his expression was a little cheeky, playful and yet very engaging.

But as the clip went on, the gaze changed. His eyes began to tear up a bit as he struggled to maintain his composure and deal with the steady slow stream of urine. A couple of times, he sputtered, cleared his throat and then resumed his role as eager receptacle, his expression becoming even more intensely submissive. Near the end of the clip, he closed his eyes and sucked hungrily on his Dominant's cock, carefully licking every drop of urine away.

I replayed the clip several times; focusing on the submissive's expression. As I watched his eyes darken, I found myself responding physically, not to the urine drinking but to that very magical change in his expression. My chest tightened and warmth spread through my abdomen. I ran my tongue over my bottom lip reflexively. I can still see his expression in my mind, even as I type this post.

This isn't the first time I've reacted strongly to an image of male submission, not by a long shot. It is however, the first time I've had such insight into why Dominants are willing to be pushed past their own limits. Even though the Dominant in this clip does not identify as gay, bi or pan-sexual, he had no issue with receiving the attentions of this particular submissive. In my case, I overcame my own aversion to water sports to watch a man piss in another man's mouth.

That look of adoration/submission/bliss - whatever you want to call it - has incredible allure. While a good submissive works to please his/her Dominant, I know that tolerance of my ministrations is not nearly enough for me. What makes it all worthwhile for me as a Top/Dominant is when I've provoked a growl or gasp followed by that beautiful expression. At that moment, I know I have the person's respect, full attention, adoration and surrender. The awareness rushes over me like a wave - engulfing me and sometimes taking my breath away.

And as a Dominant/Top, there is no other feeling quite like it.