Contemplating My Role As Keeper

 I recently gave my Pet a collar that he can wear daily, even to work. Once again I went to Aislinn's Erotic Jewels to find something appropriate and chose a helm's weave collar in black anodized and shiny aluminum wire. It suits my Pet wonderfully. The look on his face after I put it around his neck and he first caught his reflection in the mirror was moving for me. He looked so very pleased.

Pet is quickly becoming part of my family. He and my partner have bonded and seem to truly enjoy each other's company. Our dogs genuinely adore him. One in particular gets quite concerned for him when we are playing and frequently checks in to ensure he is okay. I told him he doesn't need a safe word anymore because he has a "safe beagle" instead!

Our last play session lasted about two hours - time just flies when we are playing. We laughed more than usual last time as well. The energy we share and generate is remarkable. You can see it in the video clips we have that document each session. Part of our aftercare routine is to cuddle on the couch and watch our version of "home movies". Even we are surprised at just how much fun we seem to be having and the chemistry is amazing.

We can't see each other all the time, so in between his visits we message and email each other. These messages are slowly changing and becoming a wonderful extension of our time together. We share ideas and experiences which we think the other might appreciate. We don't live in each other's back pocket, but we do stay in touch and nurture the connection between us.

I've been thinking about my role as his Keeper lately. I've been struck by the strength of my desire to nurture him, to acknowledge his strengths and encourage his fine qualities, to help him see his own reflection through my eyes. My partner and I agree that he is an old soul in a young man's body and we are impressed with his self-awareness and ability to express himself.

I find myself considering what I plan to teach him. Of course, I want him to learn skills that will help increase his desirability as a submissive and to please me. I also want him to learn new skills that will serve him well through the rest of his life and help him grow as a person.

I find myself considering what he has already taught me. I am coming to terms with the fact that I have a sadistic streak, albeit somewhat gleeful. I do get a rush as I watch him struggle to hold his position as I drip wax on his body or administer a paddling. I am also humbled yet further empowered by the trust I see in his eyes.

I'm becoming very aware of the levels of energy generated as we play. Even at its most lighthearted, there is a special place, a place of communion, we visit together. It is different than the magical place I visit with my Lady, guided by her hands; however it is magical as well. The difference of course is in this relationship, I play the role of guide, leading him to a place of surrender and basking in the energy we generate as we take this journey.

And the journey has only just begun. I look forward to my next ports of call, both as passenger with my Lady and as Captain with my Pet.